My Christmas Wish List

It is now the official countdown to Christmas, and with that comes the dreading holiday shopping and shopping wish lists to fulfill. I find it funny that we usually have an idea of what we would like to receive for Christmas, but when people ask us we are usually too shy to ask. To be honest, I don’t really expect anything specific for Christmas; I’m happy with anything I get from someone (as long as it’s not a lump of coal).

I think that I get more excited to shop for other people. I like to find unique gifts that the person wouldn’t think of or hadn’t asked for. I really try to pay attention to detail, especially when the person has brought up certain things they would like throughout the year; I am preparing a mental list all year long.

I can try to pretend I am not a materialistic gal, but let’s face it; we all are in some way or another. So I wanted to write a wish list of some things I would like for Christmas. I honestly don’t expect these things at all, but if anyone out there wants to get me one of these; you are more than welcomed to 😉

1. Loungefly Jack Skellington Backpack

2. Fujifilm Instax Wide

3. Apple iWatch

4. Lush Products

5. Things at Hot Topic

6. Checkered Vans

7. To the Stars merch

8. James Coffee Co / Peter McKinnon

9. Lauren Conrad stuff

10. Kate Spade purse

What are some things on your wish list? Let me know!

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“Typical” Day in my Life

Have you ever watched those “morning routine” or “day in my life” videos on Youtube? The person always looks so well rested, and they get to take their time doing all these morning activities. Now, imagine if the average Jane (like myself) tried to do a “morning routine” video. Yeah, that probably wouldn’t look so glamourous…especially because I look like something straight out of The Walking Dead in the morning.

Also, it would probably be very boring, since my daily life is not so interesting. Let me give you a breakdown of how my day goes ( if I wake up on time):

6am: Wake up

6:10am: Get out of bed and let the dog out to do his business.

6:15am: Brush teeth & wash face

6:20am: Apply Makeup

6:35am: Get dressed

6:40am: Warm up car, wake up Adam, dress Adam

6:50am: Leave for work

7:15am: Drop Adam off at school

7:30am: Clock in for work

3:30pm-4pm: Clock out of work

4:30pm-4:45pm: Arrive at home

5pm: Go to the Gym

6pm: Come home & eat dinner

7pm: Shower

8pm: Watch TV

9pm: Put Adam to bed

9:30pm-11pm: Watch TV/ Read a book/ Instagram Like Sprees

11:15pm: Go to sleep

Not so entertaining right? But, that is my life Monday through Friday. Maybe one day it will be a little more interesting (I can only hope), but for now I am okay with it. What does your typical day look like? Are you out traveling the world? Or maybe a stay at home mom? I’d love to hear some stories!

HAPPY PLACE

This past weekend, my friend and I checked out one the newest pop up exhibit in the Art’s District of Los Angeles: Happy Place. We had visited the Museum of Ice Cream in November, and were really interested in seeing Happy Place. The Happy Place really lived up to its name, and we were so entranced by all of the multi-sensory immersive rooms. We even had a celebrity in the museum while we were there; Meredith Grey aka Ellen Pompeo from Grey’s Anatomy was at the exhibit with her family.

We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves at the Happy Place, and I would love to check it out again before its run is over. Definitely take your time in each room, and take lots of photos! Your Instagram feed will be lit with all the pictures from the exhibit!

Tickets are still available, but the exhibit is only up for another month so visit it soon!

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Hey, Is This Thing On?

Well hello! Long time no see!

I see that it has been 6 months since my last post…I apologize. A lot has happened these last couple of months that have caused me to not have much time to do the things I love. To be honest, the reason why I decided to get back to blogging was because I had thought I was going to lose my job last month. To clarify, my work place is currently transitioning to a new company and my job status was n certain. Thankfully, I was not let go and am still working full time. But that whole experience caused me to really think about my life at the present moment.

Am I really content with working this 9-5 office job, or did I want to do something more? Sure, photography is my passion…but at this moment, I am not getting enough business to be able to quit my job. It’s just not as easy as I would like it to be. I really wish it was, but in reality I still have bills to pay and unless I win the lottery, or marry some rich man; I am stuck at my office job.

Well, stuck until i find something better. I will admit, I have been sending out applications to more creative companies (I have even applied for a few full time photographer positions). But, until then, here I am! Back to bring you all more content and pretend like I am interesting enough to keep you coming back for more. So here’s to a new month, a new day, and a semi-new beginning.

Thanks for reading.

-Mel

Things Are Getting Dark & Twisty

I’ve gone to the dark place. I don’t exactly know how I got here, or why I’m here…but here I am. It’s a funny thing to try to explain; being in the dark place. One minute I feel just fine, but then it’s almost like in an instant I am sucked back into the darkest crevices of my mind. Simple tasks become so challenging, conversations become meaningless, my hobbies are tossed to the side, and sleep feels like a warm blanket that I just want to lay in forever.

This is what my depression feels like to me. Trying to explain to people exactly what is going on, feels as complicated as me trying to explain quantum physics (which I have no knowledge of). In fact it’s almost physically exhausting trying to figure out what the hell is going on in my head. Whenever someone asks “what’s wrong” and I respond with “I don’t know,” it’s not that I am being difficult or I don’t want to talk about it; I just really have no idea why I am in that mood.

I have some amazing friends who can easily spot the signs when I am in the dark place. What I need them to understand is I don’t always want to talk about it. It can be as simple as me just wanting to cry for hours; and I will, out of nowhere it seems. Often times when I say I just want to be alone, what I really want is to be around other people. But I won’t tell them that, it seems stupid and I don’t know why I don’t tell them. Sometimes I just simply need a hug, or just an “I am here for you.” It takes me time to open up and I honestly hate doing it because I feel like I am bothering them with my issues. To me I feel like I sound like I am just crying for attention, or that I am wasting their time by talking about it. I know I’m probably not and that they really want to help, but the dark place tells me otherwise.

I know I’ll get over it soon. It seems to be a trend around May when I start to reach the peak of what my depression has to offer, and then I slowly go back to being normal. I normally don’t spot the signs until I am already deep into it. It’s something that I live with every day and I can’t just “get over it,” and it has taken me years to get to this point where I can finally accept it for what it is and just try to live my life as best I can. So for now I will be in the dark place.

Thank you for understanding.

Photography Fun

I love taking days off and just spending them running around the city taking pictures. Usually I bring a friend along so they can model for me. They’re sometimes hesitant due to being “camera shy” but I coax them into doing it anyways.

My lovely friend Vanessa and I took a little trip to the Los Angeles Arboretum in Arcadia. We took a few photos of her niece for her 1st birthday, and then went on to take some more photos of just her and I. I love taking photos of her because she looks good on camera; and because she lets me boss her around.